It's not as though it's fun.

I thought you were dead. We gotta stand up to them somewhere. Every time I look round, you're there. Yeah, she is. Miserable what? Only one way, pal. At my age, everything counts so terribly… It's disgusting. Oh, you looking for the girl? He screws around with my life. Eleven thirty tomorrow morning. They raise their hands in class. Keep close to us. What a moral crisis that would present t… I really do.