What if this doesn't pan out?

This is the safest thing on the road. What did you think having kids was going… No, we still had an amazing connection. Are you out of your mind? I don't wanna be sick. Ivan is husband, not father. He'd be relieved I was gone. You know, I always knew that Jill and I… I couldn't sleep. We should save that kind of talk for the… He said he wanted me out of your life. Most nights, I don't even want to come h… Uh, because I was hurt. I mean, I'm not sure how that helps my s… Mom, stop.