My Dinner with Andre (1981) Edit

A baby holds your hands...

A feeling of “them” and “us” that is very unsettling.

A husband. A son.

A language of the heart...

A magician, everything.

A sacrament in the world.

A strong or meaningful experience...

A week later, or two weeks later, he called me from Poland.

A whole section of the real world.

About 25 blocks away...

About what this Japanese monk was doing in these holy robes.

Actually, he seemed a little surprised...

After all, I was already doing my best.

After all, somebody had to bring in a little money.

After we got back from the Sahara, and he stayed for six months.

Again for the same reason

Ah, I live my life.

All A's, and the fourth was Antoine de Saint Exupéry...

All clay long, as people do, they do things that annoy me and they say things that annoy me.

All day eating, writing, everything opening doors...

All of which seemed, in some way, related to each other.

All sit around in a room and do a made up scene that isn't in the play.

All sorts of things occur to you.

All the other customers seemed to have left hours ago.

All today he would do everything with his left hand.

All up and down the roof, just like that.

Already, what's the difference between that...

Among the mystical orders of the church.

And And then I guess really...

And And, uh, could I also have, uh, an amaretto?

And a series of conversations began...

And about four of my fellow actors actually came up to me...

And about my girlfriend, Debby.

And actually her body was starving, but she didn't know it...

And after being in the grave for about half an hour

And all I thought about was art and music.

And all three of whom had known me for years.

And already some of these new monasteries...

And And to decide whether to send my ships off to war on the basis of that...

And another played the role of my godfather.

And as I approached his group, I wondered if I could do it.

And as I was sitting there in mass, I was wondering, “What in the world is going on?”

And at one point Chiquita said, “The flag, the flag. Where's the flag?”

And at one point, I noticed that Grotowski was at the center of one group...

And at the same time be completely dead inside.

And become very thin and grown a beard.

And before I knew it, there were two circles, dancing, you know

And Björnstrand talks about the concept of “reserves”

And burn it and cover it with earth, 'cause the devil's in it.”

And children pushing their parents out of windows.

And chocolate someone had gone a great distance to buy...

And come back.

And culture and rational thinking.

And do nothing but write in my diary.

And even if I were to accept the idea that there's just no way for anybody...

And everybody danced for the rest of the night.

And everyone danced until dawn.

And everyone will be talking at once and sort of saying...

And everything they do they do beautifully.

And everything went haywire.

And fall back into some kind of belief in some kind of weird something

And fling him into the air, and he flies through space and he's killed...

And having the cup of cold coffee that's been waiting for me all night...

And he finally came up with the very simple solution...

And he had a beautiful, clean loft down in the village with lovely, happy flags.

And he had bought at an auction the collected issues of Minotaure.

And he had bought at an auction the collected issues of Minotaure.

And he prided himself on the fact that he had no fantasy life, no dream life

And he put the bottle in front of his nose and pretended it was his face.

And he said, “Boy, don't we have a lot of reason to feel great?

And he said, “I also have some very interesting men...

And he said, “No, no. You lead the beehive.”

And he said, “Well, 40 ******* women that's a little hard to find.”

And he said, “Well, certainly. In fact, why don't you, with your group...

And he saw a faun.

And he told me that he no longer watches television...

And he told them all about Asia and the East and his monastery and everything.

And he totally failed to perceive anything else.

And he was one of Scotland's well, he was Scotland's greatest mathematician...

And he was one of the century's great mathematicians.

And he was telling story after story about his mother.

And he wasn't home. I went into his library...

And he wouldn't even go in and say hello to her.

And he, you know he couldn't stuff the check in the bottle...

And he'd been seized by a fit of ungovernable crying...

And he'd found me a forest, Wally.

And he'd have talks with the fauns.

And he'd suddenly come upon André...

And he's somebody that I think I'm quite fond of.

And he's someone I've known for years and years...

And her hair turning gray in front of my eyes.

And here they all were, bound, year after year.

And his penis had dropped off from gonorrhea, and all kinds of insane things.

And I came back home feeling all wrong.

And I can't get a job teaching anymore, and I don't know what I want to do.

And I cannot tell you, Wally, what I was going through.

And I could hear Kozan singing far away in that beautiful bass voice.

And I couldn't hear anything anybody said.”

And I did a play of Alice.

And I didn't have the guts to be Billie Holiday either.

And I don't even know if I can express it.

And I feel a little bit different when I get up in the morning.

And I feel I'm going to fail it.

And I felt myself being lowered onto something like a stretcher.

And I gave the teddy bear suck, suddenly, at my breast.

And I guess even in a way, at times, sort of fascistic.

And I had dinner with three relatively close friends...

And I had told him that I didn't want to come, because, really, I had nothing left to teach.

And I heard about this community in Scotland called Findhorn...

And I instinctively interpret it as if it were an omen of the future.

And I looked back to see when the issue came out.

And I mean, at the most, you know, in a situation like that, uh...

And I mean, for instance, the icebox, the stove, the car they all have names.

And I mean, I enjoy reading about other little plays people have written...

And I mean, of course, if you're really alive inside...

And I mean, people who saw Eleonora Duse in the last couple of years of her life, Wally

And I mean, uh, when Debby was working as a secretary, you know...

And I mean, you know, even if I were to totally agree with you, you know...

And I mean, you know, it's the same...

And I met this young Japanese Buddhist priest named Kozan...

And I never You know, I consider myself a bit of a surrealist.

And I realized that that face in the picture was the saddest face in the world.

And I really just find that attitude unbearable...

And I remember always being exhausted in that period.

And I said, “Oh, yeah. The flag.” And I go and get the flag, and I open it up.

And I said, “Oh, yes.” And he said, “Why do you think they don't leave?”

And I saw this woman who looked as bad as any survivor of Auschwitz or Dachau.

And I say, “Because you're annoying,” you know.

And I see that coffee there, just the way I wanted it.

And I sometimes sort of wonder, well, what is it doing to me?

And I started screeching about how he had just been found in the Bronx River...

And I suddenly had this feeling I was just as creepy as they were...

And I suddenly had this feeling. I mean, you know, I was just sitting there, crying through most of the show.

And I suddenly heard a voice say, “Little Prince.”

And I think I just simply object to that.

And I thought he was Puck from the Midsummer Night's Dream.

And I took Chiquita to see this show about Billie Holiday.

And I tried to do that. Didn't work.

And I tried to follow his voice along the sand.

And I was all into The Little Prince, and I talked to him about The Little Prince...

And I was born during the day of May 11, 1934.

And I was dancing with a girl...

And I was given a new name. They called me Yendrush.

And I was in pretty bad shape.

And I was one of the last.

And I was out in the hall sort of comforting my father...

And I was playing the part of the cat.

And I was sitting there just thinking that he was a pompous, defensive...

And I went in to see her...

And I would have liked nothing better than to go home and have my girlfriend Debby...

And I would just wail and yell my lungs out out there on the dunes.

And I would look at a leaf, and I would actually see that thing...

And I wouldn't have been able to hear anything, and I would have fainted.

And I wrote in the center something like, “Your heart is in my hand.”

And I'd heard that they'd grown things in soil...

And I'd stayed back in New York.

And I'm not a doctor, or a therapist, or a priest.

And I'm really quite self satisfied. I'm just quite happy with myself.

And I'm sure the people who read it had a pretty strong experience. I'm sure they did.

And I'm trying to share that, uh, with an audience.

And I've always looked at that picture and just thought about just how sexy she looks.

And if Debby is there?

And if I can occasionally get my little talent together and write a little play...

And if I could work in a forest, I'd come.”

And if there isn't, I don't really know what the word “love” means...

And if they watch the evening news on television...

And if you can't react to another person...

And if you're just operating by habit...

And immediately he'd be playing with these children...

And in all the work that I was involved in, there was always that danger.

And in her letter she'd written, “You have dominated me.”

And in this ruined basement, they had set up a table with benches they'd made.

And it also means that things in the universe are there for a purpose to give us messages.

And it is today.

And it just stood there for the whole mass.

And it shouldn't work, 'cause it should fall off.

And it was it was half bull, half man...

And it was founded by several rather middle class English and Scottish eccentrics.

And it was just a miracle of light...

And it was just strange, you know?

And it was one of those one of those awful, dreary Catholic churches on Long Island...

And it wouldn't be noticed, no. It wouldn't be noticed.

And it, uh It repeats itself over and over again.

And it's a song in which you thank God for your eyes...

And it's in summer, and she's stretched out on a terrace...

And it's just unbelievably beautiful.

And its skin was blue.

And just hold himself there with two fingers.

And just listen to what was inside me.

And later, when I got home, I realized I'd just been desperate to break through this ice.

And let the U.F.O.'s know that this was a safe place to land...

And like a little child fascinated by fire...

And look at the stars.

And mailed off several copies of my plays...

And Marina could have flu or a temperature of 104...

And maybe you can do it at home.

And meanwhile there's all of this rage and worry and uneasiness...

And midnight on Halloween, under a dark moon, above these cliffs...

And more and more fauns would come out every afternoon to meet him.

And no cockroach or fly has has died in it overnight.

And none of them speak English.”

And now everybody's redefined the theater in such a trivial way...

And now here comes a specialist who tells us they're in wonderful shape.

And now they're just thinking, “Well, what can I do?”

And of course, Grotowski was there in the city too.

And on this table they had laid out paper, pencils, wine and glasses.

And once again you don't know quite what you should do next.

And one day when he was in his mid 50s, he was walking in the gardens of Edinburgh...

And others wanted it to be a kind of lecture hall.

And our schedule was that usually we'd start work around sunset...

And Pan indirectly sent him on his way on a journey...

And partly a therapist, and partly a priest.

And pass it around the audience.

And people don't hire you.

And people started to sit with us and started to learn the song.

And put one of my plays on the professional stage.

And raspberry soup and rabbit stew.

And reading the reviews of those plays and what people said about them...

And really being in that state, you know, where laughter and tears seem to merge.

And see little birds flying out of my mouth.

And she died of starvation because all she would eat was chicken.

And she said, “I don't like it.”

And she said, “What is that? That's awful.” I said, “It's a flag.”

And she suddenly burst into tears because an aunt of hers who's 80...

And she'd said, “No. The correct word is 'tamed.”'

And she's slim and sensual and beautiful.

And since you wouldn't treat Helen, the icebox...

And so he taught the whole family to meditate...

And so the aunt fell out of bed and is now a complete cripple.

And so the question is, when I get on my deathbed, what kind of a person am I gonna be?

And some of the people took it completely seriously...

And some of them found it funny.

And some people wanted it to be a sort of hall of meditation...

And somebody else wanted to bring a large bowl of water...

And somebody suggested that we have candles

And somebody wanted to bring a a sheet.

And sometimes I would meditate with him.

And soon nobody will really remember...

And still have been supporting his family?

And stowing it away and making sure it's all secure.

And suddenly our hands began vibrating near each other

And suddenly you understand everything.

And tells you they're in wonderful shape

And that all of this is much more dangerous than one thinks...

And that as we, or the world, grow colder...

And that every action of ours in life...

And that everything that you hear now contributes to turning you into a robot.

And that from now on there'll simply be all these robots walking around...

And that history and memory are right now being erased...

And that prayer is the action of liberating these enchained embryo like spirits...

And that sets up a link of things.

And that somehow, between working on this flag and lying on this flag...

And that there's absolutely no way out.

And that these will be, in a way, invisible planets on this planet...

And that they would find friends there.

And that they'd built not built they'd grown the largest cauliflowers in the world...

And that this head should be passed around the audience...

And that this is the beginning of the rest of the future, now...

And that was really the last big event. I mean, that was the end.

And that was the end of the beehive.

And that we would simply sing it over and over again.

And that we're probably going back to a very savage...

And that what they're trying to do, which is what Findhorn was trying to do...

And that wherever I worked, this flag would fly.

And that, uh, you know, trees do not turn into people or goddesses...

And that's pretty scary.

And that's quite a task.

And that's that.

And that's to face, to confront the fact that you're completely alone.

And the apartment was filled with guests.

And the children found him amazing.

And the cookie is in no position to know about that.

And the country out there is like Heathcliff country.

And the entire group was weaving around the room and chanting.

And the fact that I've gotten it is just basically a joke.

And the forest he had found us was absolutely magical.

And the human being can continue to function...

And the idea was that the energy that would flow from stone to stone...

And the impact that it had on its audience on me

And the man who designed it had never designed anything in his life.

And the moon and the sky and the stars...

And the only inhabitants of this forest were some wild boar and a hermit.

And the purpose of this underground...

And the room was just filled with harsh white light.

And the stretcher was carried a long way, very slowly, through these forests...

And The Times is delivered, you can read it.

And The Times is delivered, you can read it.

And the two of them were fast asleep in each other's arms.

And then after he'd gone, I turned the television on...

And then another one said, “Oh, you know, whenever I wear even a hat on stage...

And then at a certain point, hours later...

And then at night we would walk out under that enormous sky...

And then at one point, people were dancing...

And then everyone would improvise

And then generally we'd work until about 6:00 or 7:00 in the morning.

And then he went into his pocket, and he took out a seed for a tree...

And then I felt myself being lowered into the ground.

And then I remember just running through the woods as fast as I could...

And then I remember one incredibly dark night...

And then I think, to begin with, the Terrine de Poissons.

And then I threw the teddy bear to him, and he gave it suck at his breast.

And then I went and tried to write an answer to her letter...

And then it just leaps out inappropriately.

And then last year in Israel, I looked at the picture...

And then my valuables were put on me, in my hands.

And then naked, again blindfolded, I was run through these forests...

And then on the final day of our stay in the forest...

And then on the last day of our stay in the forest, these two showed up...

And then one at a time they would ask one of us to come with them...

And then one day suddenly you find yourself in a relationship...

And then one day, in the early fall...

And then one person one a woman who runs the casting office, said...

And then slowly people arrived, the way they would arrive at the theater

And then suddenly there's this huge man lifting you off the ground...

And then the insects will leave the main part alone.

And then the next day I gave it to this young woman...

And then the teddy bear was thrown up into the air again...

And then the three of them Helen, Bill and Fred showed up wearing white.

And then they shoveled dirt into the grave...

And then this wood was put on me...

And then we then we just hugged each other for a moment.

And then we'd have our food, which was generally bread, jam, cheese and tea.

And then we'd sleep from around noon to sunset.

And then when I went to town and bought the book and started to read it...

And then, again, when it was over, it was just like the theater after a performance.

And then, because the Poles love to sing and dance...

And there are sort of cabbages.

And there are very good reasons why they don't...

And there was a full page reproduction of the letter

And there was always that question of tampering with people's lives...

And there was no burn and no pain.

And there was somebody being carried below the sheet.

And there was this guy who had just won the something something.

And there were there were three Andres and one Antoine de Saint Exupéry.

And there were all these naked bodies...

And there were four handprints.

And there were only about nine of us involved, mostly men.

And there'll be nobody left almost to remind them...

And there's a life going on between you and the person you're living with...

And there's no other person to hide behind.

And there's one thing that's for sure about death

And there's this strange person living in the house, and I'm not working

And these What was it like? You know, this is the

And they all seem totally self confident.

And they came for me, and they put a blindfold on me...

And they can't reach each other, and their lives are desperate?

And they end up feeling passive and impotent.

And they filled the castle with flowers.

And they pull the tree back, and they tie him to the tree...

And they ran me through these fields two people.

And they rip him to shreds and I guess cut off his head

And they said these things which I just couldn't help thinking...

And they shook me by my hands, and they thanked me very much...

And they spent the whole evening going

And they took me down the steps, into this basement...

And they took us into the basement of this house that had burned down on the property.

And they, in fact, created something...

And they'd found a kind of potting shed you know, a kind of shed, on the grounds...

And they'd shown these handprints to some kind of expert...

And they'd shown these handprints to some kind of expert...

And they'd stretched about this much above my head...

And they'd taken, you know, a kind of sheet or canvas...

And they'll just be roaring with laughter.

And they've grown trees that can't grow in the British Isles.

And this became our theme song.

And this can be true in your work as well.

And to accept that you're alone is to accept death.

And to me that is a coincidence.

And to not know what the next moment will bring...

And to not know what the next moment will bring...

And to say that we ought to be able to live without it...

And today I get annoyed. And they say, “Why are you annoyed?”

And use it as a point of departure for something.

And was an incredibly beautiful piece of theater.

And watch the lights go from red to green and think, “How wonderful.”

And we all need to live in these outposts.

And we borrowed Dick Avedon's property out at Montauk.

And we came to a great circle of fire, with music and hot wine...

And we came to a kind of tent made of sheets, with sheets on the ground.

And we did. And we waited, and it was very, very cold.

And we drank instant coffee out of the top of my shaving cream...

And we knew they were preparing something big...

And we rode and we rode.

And we rode through the desert on camels.

And we sang Polish songs and Greek songs...

And we talked about his wife, Chiquita, and his two children, Nicolas and Marina.

And we talked from midnight until 11:00 the next morning.

And we threw the teddy bear back and forth.

And we went down to our knees, and suddenly I was sobbing in her arms...

And we went off to the rail road station...

And we were all asked to sit at the table and to make out our last will and testament.

And we were just sitting there, and we were singing this very beautiful song.

And we would eat around this great stone slab that served as a sort of a table.

And we're not necessarily up to it.

And went back to New York.

And what people said about what people said.

And when I was 10 years old I was rich, I was an aristocrat...

And when I was talking to, uh, Gustav Björnstrand...

And when I was there, Wally, I remember being in the woods...

And when we went to the forest, these two disappeared...

And when we were Yeah, out of fear...

And would have thought that was the most unimaginable behavior.

And you can't just believe absolutely anything.

And you don't want them to die, and then a doctor comes out five minutes later...

And you have to relate, and yet you're relating to a ghost or something.

And you know, and if you go in one moment, and you see the person's dying...

And you know, there was this very straightforward looking guy.

And you thank God for your heart, and you thank God for your friends...

And you thank God for your life.

And you're all trapped in the drawing room together.”

And you're not conscious of the reality of what's happening to you.

And your apartment is cold and you need to put on another blanket...

And, in a way, obscene.

And, in a way, what I was trying to do

And, uh, Grotowski and I were walking along Fifth Avenue and we were talking.

And, uh, I probably will faint tonight, just as you did.”

And, uh, it just wouldn't be noticed.

And, uh, then we joined the dance again.

And, uh, this must have been about five years ago...

And, uh, you would play in some way.

And, you know, everyone is totally destroyed...

And, you know, I can even get an “A” if I put in the required effort...

André had explained to George that he'd just been watching...

André seemed to know an awful lot about the menu.

André, now, how can you say something like that?

Anyway, the desert was pretty horrible.

Anyway, we were out in the country, and we all went to Christmas mass together.

Apparently, George had been walking his dog in an odd section of town the night before...

Are all trying to live up to someone's fantasy...

Are becoming institutionalized...

Are difficult and painful.

Are really getting on in life...

Are there other people in the world who are cold?

Are you ready for some dessert?

As a part of your experience.

As disgusting, childish treacle.

As just a very decent, good person, you know...

As well as my most valued colleague in the theater.

Asking questions always relaxes me.

At 5:00 in the morning, she called me up and she said...

At 8:00 a hundred strangers come into a room.”

At every single moment...

At first, he seemed a little reluctant to go into it...

At one time he'd been a very close friend of mine...

At one time, he'd been quite fat, then he'd lost an incredible amount of weight...

At the superficiality of these things.

At which 140 or 130 people suddenly exploded.

At which there was another explosion of form into... something.

Automatically makes perceiving reality a very low priority...

Backwards to the present.

Based on The Master and Margarita by Bulgakov.

Based on the state of the airplane and the state of the pilot.

Be, uh, “relating,” to use the word we're always using?

Because he knew of the Christian misconception...

Because he really does feel that we're living in some kind of Orwellian nightmare now...

Because here's a dignified, intelligent man a man of my own age

Because I can buy my way into the building.

Because I really do believe that if you're just living mechanically...

Because I really do think the theater can do something very important.

Because if I lead one of these workshops, then I do become partly a doctor...

Because if it's all meaningless...

Because if you believe in omens, then that means that the universe

Because if you find yourself in a forest with a group of 40 people...

Because if your life is organized around trying to be successful in a career...

Because Pan would like to meet him.

Because people are talking in symbols.

Because somehow in our social existence today...

Because that, again, is close to death.

Because that's what you do, out of habit?

Because the wonderful thing about scientific theories about things...

Because they had literally set up hundreds of candles and torches.

Because they have great gales up in northern Scotland.

Because they understood the the experiment so well...

Because they wanted it to be a kind of spaceship which at night could rise up...

Because we do so many things every day that affect us in ways...

Because when he comes out of that room, he psychically kills us...

Because with that comes an immediate awareness of death...

Because you have to learn now.

Because you just can't believe that a group of people who don't know how to sing...

Because you really feel an impulse to do them...

Because, I mean it just I mean, of course, on some level, I mean...

Because, I mean, if I'd listened to those people, I would have gone out there on stage...

Because, in fact, those people liked me.

Because, really, there are these abrasive beatings to be avoided everywhere you look.

Because, uh, the world is very abrasive.

Because, you see, I think that if you put on serious, contemporary plays...

Before the arrival of scientific thinking as we know it today...

Being at an oasis, and there were palm trees moving in the wind...

Being, uh, strangled on a on a submarine.

Blindfold taken off, and run through these fields.

Brings you closer to a perception of death.

But And And then, you know, the people who put that book together...

But But actually, without branches or roots, it wouldn't be a tree.

But all I can do is just, urn, be there...

But at that time, I hadn't learned what it would be like to let yourself react...

But at the same time be able to fly up at night and meet the flying saucers.

But at the same time, if the roof needed to go up, it would be light enough to go up.

But comfort can lull you into a dangerous tranquillity.

But for the last several years our financial circumstances...

But forget about the play that you may or may not direct.

But frankly, you know...

But has it ever occurred to you, Wally, that the process...

But he said, “I do have 40 women. They all pretty much fit the definition.”

But he was smiling malevolently at his friends, and I looked at that guy and I thought...

But he was taking over more and more.

But I brought it home, because my idea with this flag...

But I can just imagine some beautiful S.S. man...

But I do think that you have to constantly ask yourself the question, with total frankness:

But I don't really know what you're talking about.

But I felt that this creature was somehow coming to comfort me...

But I just couldn't find the right words, so finally I took my hand...

But I just don't, uh

But I mean, I I just I just don't think...

But I mean, the main thing, Wally, is that I think that that kind of comfort...

But I mean, uh, the thing is, Wally, I think it's the exaggerated worship of science...

But I mean, you know, I just can't believe even for you

But I mean, you know, I just can't believe even for you

But I really felt as if I were floating above the ground, not walking.

But I'm not adequate, uh, just to to be a human being.

But in fact, I would go because, I mean...

But in my conscious opinion, which is so fundamental to my whole view of life

But in my real life, I was dead.

But in my real life, I was dead.

But in this case, you are the character.

But in which the excitement didn't overwhelm you.

But instead of applying them to a role, you apply them to yourself.

But it has has something to do with living.

But it was exactly the way that people prepare for a performance.

But it works. It does work.

But meanwhile, the other person would have reacted to your walking out.

But modern science has not been particularly less dangerous.

But now they say, “Oh, that was pretty good.”

But Roc said he would love to meet Pan, and so they met...

But Roc used to practice certain exercises

But since I've come back home I've just been finding the world we're living in...

But somehow it seems that the whole point of the work that you did in those workshops...

But still, I thought, “Well, you know, if a voice comes to me in a field”

But that somebody who's bored is asleep...

But that's not unusual that the surrealists would have been interested in Alice...

But the biggest event was three of the people...

But the fact that nobody could say...

But the hostility was completely inappropriate...

But the nurse was so sloppy, she didn't put the bed rails up...

But the other people, what they saw was this tan, or this shirt...

But the problem is that people can't see the cigar store now.

But the psychic part of the community wanted it to serve another function as well...

But the wonderful thing that happened...

But the worst thing of all was that I'd been trapped by an odd series of circumstances...

But then a couple of weeks later, Chiquita and I could be out...

But then that feeling goes quite quickly.

But then, uh, when they asked what I did...

But there's always the danger that things can go dead.

But they created something that had ritual, love, surprise...

But they had trouble, uh, making up my cat suit...

But those are typical evenings for us.

But to you it was significant, as if that book had been written 40 years ago...

But we didn't know what.

But we do at least know that the universe has some shape and order...

But we just don't dare to ask each other.

But what was unusual about this improvisation...

But when I tried to put my right hand in the flame, I couldn't hold it there for a second.

But who just wouldn't leave, so we took her along with us.

But you do now. In some way or other, you do now.

But you know, if you live with somebody for a long time, people are constantly saying...

But you know, in the Middle Ages...

But you know, very few people ever see them.

But you need to cut out the noise.

But you went to the Sahara.

But you're conscious of the taste of your food.

But, uh, it is quite different from not having an electric blanket...

But, uh, you know, the fear of unconscious impulses...

But, urn, I see it as a test...

But, Wally, don't you don't you see that comfort can be dangerous?

But...

By 5:00 I'd finally made it to the post office...

By taking us into a dream world...

By the end of the book, I was in tears, I was so moved by the story.

By the way, uh, did you ever see...

By which they'll set aside a special patch of vegetables just for the insects...

By writers like yourself...

Can it do it now?

Can leave you vulnerable to all sorts of very frightening manipulation.

Can't possibly have any relevance to the subject you're analyzing.

Carrying out the responsibilities, doing the errands...

Celebration, joy, wonder, abandon, wildness, tenderness.

Certain things did come slowly to be known and understood.

Certainly, sir.

Chiquita and I have had this very unpleasant feeling that we really should get out.

Christ, that's quite a challenge.

Conference on paratheatrical work then.

Conservative stuffed shirt who was only interested in the theater.

Cook me a nice, delicious dinner.

Could create something so beautiful.

Could speak or bleed or whatever it was.

Could we stand to live like that?

Created by a world totalitarian government based on money...

Debby and I were given an electric blanket.

Denouement, beginning, a middle and end...

Did we have a conversation? What did we talk about?”

Do you know a lot of New Yorkers who keep talking about the fact that they want to leave, but never do?”

Do you want to know my actual response to all this?

Does she enjoy the ears being nibbled?

Does that help to wake up a sleeping audience?

Don't in any way affect us?

Eight feet deep.

Even about our supposedly closest friends.

Even if I had known what I felt...

Even if they were enjoying the conversation, or they were flirting with me, or whatever it was

Even if they're in absolute agony, I always find it very... interesting.

Even though people have always known that he had some money somewhere.

Even though, by performing these roles all the time...

Everyone is sort of floating through this fog of symbols and unconscious feelings.

Except duty, obligation, sentimentality, fear.

Except in the most extreme situations.

Except that in this type of improvisation the kind we did in Poland

Except to involve them in some kind of a strange, uh, christening in Poland...

Except, uh, the few little things that they wanted to see.

Exercises meant nothing to me anymore.

Feeling nothing, thinking nothing.

Finally, I got around to asking him what he'd been up to in the last few years.

Findhorn people see it a little differently.

First, I'd be worried I might get electrocuted. No, I don't trust technology.

For a moment, get anywhere near what

For instance, you might say to them...

For months at a time, his family seemed only to know that he was traveling...

For someone to have an impulse to do something.

For the first time in my life...

For the wonderful work they'd been able to do, you see.

From a young woman who'd been in my group in Poland.

From certain selected moments.

From Tenniel's Alice In Wonderland.

From the steppes of Russia to the suburbs of Chicago.

Full of ****s and murders and hands cut off by subway cars...

Get out of here.

God.

God.

God. Well, tell me about it.

God. Well, tell me some of the other things you did with your group.

Good evening, sir. Nice to see you again.

Great.

Grotowski and I got together at midnight in my hotel room...

Grotowski was a pretty unusual character himself.

Grotowski. Is he still thin?

Grown ups were learning how to play again.

Had brought musical instruments, a flute and a drum...

Had called me and just insisted that I had to see him.

Had just stunned audiences throughout the world.

Have forced Debby to work three nights a week as a waitress.

Have you read Martin Buber's book On Hasidism?

He '0' also dropped out of the theater.

He doesn't read newspapers, and he doesn't read magazines.

He dropped out of the theater. He sort of disappeared.

He had a whole series of very simple exercises that he had invented...

He just felt that people in their lives now were performing so well...

He never used to like to leave home at all.

He put a swastika in your flag?

He put it in my hand and he said, “Escape before it's too late.”

He really captivated everybody with an incredible bag of tricks.

He said you looked like you'd come back from a war.

He said, “Well, a beehive is...

He seemed to really connect with it.

He showed me a flag that I thought was very odd, you know...

He somehow allowed you the distance between the play and yourself...

He somehow created a theater in which people could observe...

He told me a few things about Jerzy Grotowski...

He was drinking this whole bottle of bourbon very quietly.

He was eating huge amounts of food.

He was one of the founders of Findhorn...

He was saying that actually these centers are growing up everywhere now...

He was talking and talking. His mother had been a famous Norwegian comedienne.

He wasn't really listening to the guy who was interviewing him...

He wrote children's books.

He's 84 years old, and he always travels with a backpack...

He's a Swedish physicist. Gustav Björnstrand.

He's completely cut them out of his life...

His laugh was so horrible.

His name was André Gregory.

Hmm.

Hmm.

Hmm. Well, what happened, Wally...

How anybody could enjoy something else any more than that.

How desperately curious we all are to know how all the others of us...

How does it affect an audience to put on one of these plays...

How intensely can you talk about Schopenhauer at some elegant French restaurant?

How to keep things living.

Huddled around a bunch of candles that they'd gathered together.

Huddling together for warmth against the cold.

Huh.

Huh.

Huh.

Huh.

Human beings exploded out of this tight little circle that was singing the song.

I always carry it with me. It was taken when she was about 26 or something.

I always enjoy finding out about people.

I always felt weak. You know, I really didn't know what was going on with me.

I became an actor

I can pass any other sort of a test...

I can snuggle up against you even more because it's cold.

I can tell you that it is just such a marvelous advance...

I certainly don't take responsibility for how I've lived in that world.

I completely agree.

I couldn't get over the way the actors would hug when they greeted each other.

I couldn't teach anything.

I did it anyway.

I didn't know they were so small.

I didn't tell her anything about any of this.

I do just the same thing myself.

I don't I don't think we're even aware of ourselves or our own reaction to things.

I don't know about you, Wally, but I

I don't know if this is true of you, but I think it must be quite common.

I don't know what happened to the other people, but I just started to cry uncontrollably.

I don't know, because we're ghosts.

I don't know, uh, Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen.

I don't think he had any interest in children whatsoever.

I enjoy going through the notebook...

I enjoy staying home with Debby.

I feel the need for anything more than all this.

I felt sort of becalmed, you know, like that chapter in Moby Dick...

I gave him different banal theories. He said, “Oh, I don't think it's that way at all.”

I got quite crazy, as a matter of fact.

I grabbed him by the collar, and I said, “Listen, about this beehive.

I grew up on the Upper East Side...

I had expected something gentle and lyrical.

I had never, ever seen a copy of Minotaure.

I had nothing left to say. I didn't know anything.

I had problems of my own. I mean, I couldn't help André.

I had to go.

I haven't been living. I've been acting. I've I've acted the role of the father.

I haven't really heard them. I haven't really been with them.

I heard that every night, he conducted something called a beehive.

I just didn't want to do these things anymore, you know?

I just don't have a clue how to pass this test.

I just feel, uh, just totally at sea. I mean

I just had to put myself into a kind of training program to learn how to be a human being.

I just have no complaint about myself.

I just instinctively sort of You know, if it says something like, uh...

I just kept thinking about the same things that I was always thinking about at home

I just never really looked at the picture.

I just never really looked at the picture.

I just think I'm a perfectly nice guy, uh, you know...

I just, uh I just have this feeling of...

I know people who are involved with the theater who go to see things now that

I looked at these show business people who know nothing about Billie Holiday, nothing.

I loved the sound of this beehive...

I mean

I mean

I mean I mean, I know what you're talking about...

I mean I mean, I'm just trying to to survive, you know?

I mean I mean, is Mount Everest more real than New York?

I mean I mean, isn't there just as much reality to be perceived...